I will marry sophia bush.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in paris in our fabulous House.
		We will have 8 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a purple ford taurus.
		I will spend my days as a housewife, and live happily ever after.

I've now got the new LiveJournal Messenger. My Windows Live ID is clairvoyantly@livejournal.com. Sign up now and we can chat!

So I know I havent wrote in this journal in God knows when. I regret it. I wish I kept a log of all the memories over these last couple years. To be able to look back & show myself just how strong I can be. & I have been. But who needs regrets ?

I turned 20 the 2nd of this month. It was a major transition. I got kicked out on my 20th birthday. Its not shock. I knew it was coming from my mother because whether she wants to believe it or not. Im not her daughter just some stranger that she's known for twenty years. But thats okay :] Im used to depending on myself emotionally. To be able to rise above the ashes that she so seemingly let fall over our relationship.

I slept in a car for five days. Moved to Orlando about a week/a half ago. & believe it or not, It turned into the best decision of my life. I got a job within two days. I absolutely adore my apartment. & to top it of I have my two best friends living with me. The ones that are always there where family ceases to exist. I have been wanting to just get down on my knees & thank god. Thank him for all he has so lovingly put into my hands. I got rid of so much baggage. So much of which caused me pain but I allowed it. I gave up a friendship, a love of 8 years that I had to let go. We were killing each other. I never knew what it was like to really let go of something so unselfishly yet want to hold on to it. It was hard but overall Im happy.

So Id like to make a toast to myself. To new beginnings. & endings. To love without regret. & hope for something better. & to strength cause without it we would all fall to our knees.

Soo. I've been gone just about what six months. The longest ever without being without internet. And I'm totally cool with that. It's been a very interesting last six months. Everything has been turned completely around. For the better that is. I'm a senior in high school :). My dad and my step mom got me my own internet connection which is awesome because they trust me. I've had a lot of things happen to me in April and ending up moving. So them trusting me with this is huge. I don't want to mess this up.

Anywho, I see like half of my friend list is gone. :( raysofcolour is still there! I missed her like crazy! I've missed livejournal yeah but being without it for awhile helped alot. So yeppers theres my update. Not much but just incase anyone is still listening.

FRIENDS CUT DONE

If you can't see your name under friends on my info page, you've been cut.

I feel really bad deleting a few of you cause you DO comment. But commenting isn't what I'm judging on. I'm judging on how much I actually READ your entries & pretty much how often do I feel eager to comment. I am gonna miss a few of you cause I've had you awhile and am used to you. I deleted quite a few HP fans cause I don't really watch or read HP very much. & a lot of the stuff you talk about I'm like "HUH!@>!". So really its better I cut you cause now you have more room for people who like to read your stuff and are eager for you to add.

I hope you all do well in life & no hard feelings okay?!@ I feel bad enough.

FRIENDS CUT

I'm doing a Friends Cut. I just can't take this anymore. I look at my FL and am like WTF?!@! I don't even read some of the entries. Its seriously NOTHING personal but I feel like I just added anyone who wanted to be without actually having anything really in common. I feel guilty doing it but it's a must if I'm gonna be enticed enough to comment and everything. Please no one be mad at me. I seriously just need people I feel I can talk to and that really interest me. I'm not asking if anyone wants to stay but I will judge everyone fairly.

Who am I kidding does anyone really care if I'm cutting them or not. I get 3 comments maybe every entry.

FRIENDS CUT DONE

I removed the ones that either NEVER comment on me (which yeah is important, shows me you're actually reading) and/or I didn't really feel a connection with. Some of the people I just didn't even remember adding cause I talk to so many. It's seriously NOTHING personal. I'll definetly add you back if you really want me to. I just don't like people being able to read my personal feelings and my insides and all, if really you are just looking for another number on your friend's list.

Down to 36 now. hehe. I also didn't de-friend anyone I just added really recently. Cause of course I wanna get to know you!

Seen this little thing around. Its called a Friending Meme and since I just LOVE new friends, its time to do one of my own. So if you will..

( Friend Me Or Spread My Love )

'One little compliment can make you feel amazing. So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind how great you are.'

I'm leaving this public but heres the thing. I don't want some crappy little excuse for a sarcastic remark on here. If you are gonna be nice, do it right. Don't lie! I wanna hear the truth cause god knows I'd give the truth to you.

compliments make me giddy

Quote:"Analysis destroys wholes. Some things, magic things, are meant to stay whole. If you look at their pieces, they go away" Bridges Of Madison County